I wish I had never met him, so many mischances, so many times paths that crossed,

at first I thought it was meant to be, but then I became entangled in his troubled waters, that water bearer that could not bear the weight ov anything,

so entangled in a past that should have passed, so made buy that which was, instead ov making himself,

always running, always hiding, always claiming to sacrifice all for me, he sacrificed me instead,

his moods were ever changeable, and sometimes violent too, he took his fear out on me, I cannot say that I would not be the same if I were him,

he saught shelter from his storms beneath my tattered wings, and when I could give no more he tossed me away,

I was just so much refuse to him, after all ov his lies and deceit,

after all was said and done,

He would have killed me, I know this much to be true, twas the only thing he said that was truth,

he thought he knew so much, but was only lies,

I sacrificed everything for him,

my friends, family, time and heart, even freedom is gone from me now and I have to stay some place that I hate until They say I can go,

and what now?

I still Love him and am in Love with him,

I hope he can find his way, or is dead, for his own sake

be well my Love I will never forget my promises to you.

(I know I am sick too)